Tuesday, December 8, 2009

My Junk Drawer

How many people have a “junk” drawer in their home? You know the drawer that holds all those things that you need only occasionally and some things that you are not if sure of what they are. I think my family has a junk drawer in every room. These drawers did not start out as junk drawer. They were just regular drawers that slowly day after day accumulate the junk of life and became what they are….junk drawers. I have tried many times to organize, rearrange and clean them out but they clutter up again.
As I was searching through one of those drawers today I realized what an analogy that drawer was for my earlier years. I grew up as normal and regular as you can be. I had a very loving and caring family with mom, dad, brother and sister. We were involved in church, school and community. Life was good for me. However, at around the age of 12 or 13 the junk of life started coming in. Self-doubt, worry, contempt, fear, and a multitude of other thoughts all bombarding me from various sources yet really all from the father of lies(junk), Satan. Eventually, just like a junk drawer or room, my life became out of control and overflowing from the junk. I knew I had to put a stop to Satan’s endless stream of junk but unfortunately at the age of 15 and with limited coping skills I made the only choice I thought I could. I decided to take my life but God had another plan. Although He spared my life that cold December night I still did not turn to Him to allow him to clean up my junk.

I will share the rest of my junk drawer at a later date as I am praying for God to lead to that next step.


  1. Oh girl, my life has had its fair share of junk in it! There is so much more I need to clean out!

    I appreciate the courage it took in sharing your story on the blog. I can't wait to read the rest the Lord has for you to share with us!

    Prayers and blessings as you continue along the road of obedience,

  2. I'm so glad Amy that you are sharing your story with us. It will be healing for you and also it will be a blessing to someone else out there who may be silently dealing with an overloaded, ready to burst junk drawer of life themselves, and feel they can't let anyone know about it.

    I'm so glad that God was there for you that night. He is certainly not finished with you yet! He has big plans for you.

    Thank you for your sweet comments on my blog tonight.

    Lee Ann

  3. Thank you for sharing about your "junk drawer." Like you, I've filled up a new one in every season of my life! God has graciously purged them over time and as I have allowed.

    I pray you find the "gleaning" process to, not only be necessary but also tender and kind, as it has been for me. God has been good to rid me of a great many things over the year.


  4. Oh Amy, this my friend is beautiful it...your story has His amazing grace and loved filled signature all over it. You my friend are loved and I am praying and knowing He will continue to lead each step...and as you share your story...trust and know He is using it to bring others to His heart!!!

  5. You have no idea how your story is touching lives. Keep on following God. It is incredible where He is taking you. I love you!