As I link up with my friends at Lisa's place I am amazed at some to the words these writers share and how quickly they write. I always try to stay up so that I can get the prompt as soon as Lisa post it which is normally around midnight on Thursday night. However, even when I see the word the words just do not seem to flow as easily or quickly as I would like them to. I have to chew on it for a while. Digest it into my heart. And today's word was no exception. Rest could mean so many different things but our first thought is of time away, doing nothing, just relaxing. We expect to come away from a time of rest refilled and rejuvenated. That is not always the case,
Earlier this year I have to have surgery the required me to rest for a few weeks. Doctor's orders were to 'just lay around and do nothing.' I was sore from the procedure but I was also very worn down by the stresses of life so I took his directions to heart. For two weeks I did nothing. I didn't go to work, cook, wash clothes or dishes. When it was time for me to begin taking back on my normal daily activity I was surprised at the fact that I was still very very tired. It was no longer a physical weakness. Nor was it even an emotional tiredness. It was a type of tired I have not really know before. I have been struggling with it for weeks now. At times it is not as heavy on me as it is at others but it never goes away. I just have not been able to put my finger on where it was coming from, That is until yesterday as I was folding clothes. (Yes God has a sense of humor. One of the things I dislike doing the most gave me my answer).
|RU? halfhearted ~ wholehearted|
That is it.
That is the struggle that is making me so tired.
I am tired of just being halfhearted.
I am tired of comparing what I know God expected to the looks of other that don't understand.
I am tired of only following God when it is convenient of my life.
I AM TIRED !!!!!!!
Today I want to learn to just simply rest.
To rest in Him.
What about you? R U Halfhearted ~ Wholehearted?
What is it that is making you so tired ?
"My presences will go with you, and I will give you rest"